Life Didn't Tell me, But I Managed To Learn.

My birth certificate doesn't show the year 1938, or 1910... So i'm not a hundred years old, I'm just another girl who was a teenager a while ago..

I didn't want to learn,, i just wanted to live... i never wanted to think about death, or illness...

I thought that a hospital is a place that might be 3 minutes away, but at least 30 years away..

I thougtht, that we might be moving too fast, for death to catch us... It'll only get the slow ones... the older ones.. and I walked fast... I still Walk fast... I hope i slow down a little bit towards the end...

And I learned that you will laugh over dinner at night,, and all the ones you brought happiness to will cry the next morning...

My thoery says: Don't get closer to people, especially the ones you love..

Each time I drive fast, I put the smiles of those who love me at risk...

Each time I sleep, I put their smiles at risk...

Each cigarette I smoke, puts thei smile at risk...

It's depressing at some points to cause the misery of someone, you would have jeopordized your coming years just to make them happy...

It's so depressing, not to have the ability to control... what life gives you... 'cause sometimes, life gives you the hardest thing anyone can get, but only their tears, will lead you to death...

Life taught me that i should understand, if they don't wanna get closer, if they don't wanna hang out , if they don't wanna be friends anymore,,, they have the right to,,, they just wanna save time... and heartache...

I'm not the best personality you'd meet... but sometimes God sends me the people who can see the best I am/have..

I'm guilty,,, I shouldn't have done this.. but they are amazing,, And I can't tell them to spare me, when I really need them.

One day, you are driving fast, to pick your friends up, and have some fun... The other day.. you are driving really fast, hoping that a truck will save you the burden of seeing yourself dying... but the worst,, is driving fast so you don't watch the picture of someone you love fading..

Apparently, Westerns, who seem cold in their relations with people, are just doing the right thing.

p.s. When I applied my theory to my life... I missed a lot .. including the ones I loved the most... I missed the chance to be around, I observed my life through FB photo albums,,, and i didn't like me untagged in any... sometimes God gives you difficult choices, You either kill, or live life as if dead.... And I am too selfish to live dead... :S